There should have been a whisper in the wind. Or maybe a deep chill in the bone. Something about what the day has in stock. Most times we brush away what the mind tells us but today God was on my side because listened and didn't brush away what my mind was telling me. I have an appointment with a pastor and my gut told me to put on a jean trouser and i top- i wore exactly that.
I got there and took a sit. Without wasting time, i told him what had brought me and we discussed about it. After the whole discussion, he asked for my phone. He wanted to see my pictures- Strange. but i gave him to go through it. Before i could say JESUS, this pastor had grabbed me like a goal keeper would grab a ball.
What is it pastor?, I said. Just relax, he replied. What?!. This is surreal i thought. the Bible says "For we wrestle not against flesh and blood...". this is more than flesh and blood, i was determined to wrestle with him. Thank God for my strength, i grabbed hold of his shoulders and pushed him away, he fell over the table and hit the ground. I rushed out only to be faced with a barking dog. God where are you? i whispered, i was caught between the devil and the deep blue sea. He tried to hold me again but when he saw that i was ready for a fight he relaxed and said "OK, OK am sorry". Please i want to go or i would scream, i replied. No one will hear you if you scream and if you go out the dog will bite your heels, he said.
I was in a confused state. I had no option than to beg this devil that calls himself a pastor. 'Please let me go'.
I will let you go on one condition promise me you would come next week, i looked into his eyes, they were burning with lust. God forbid i thought, but i quickly said yes just to get out. He chased the dog away and guided me till i was out of the compound.
There is nothing like freedom no matter how little it is. Fresh breeze greeted my face as i stepped out and i felt so much relaxed. I headed for my house. I hit my bed as soon as i got home. I tried to take a nap but i couldn't get one. My mind drifted back to what had happened earlier, I couldn't fathom it. I was near been raped. God!. This must have been a dream. What would have happened had it been i wore a skirt- i would have gone home in torn clothes. No. Pastor?, Pastor?. It can't be true. So i decided to text him.
ME- I don't really know what you were up to just can't believe that was you. i don't understand, you should explain.
PASTOR- I don't know how you will take this; i love and i want you close to me. is that okay by you.
I was stunned, i felt cold chill in my body then i replied.
ME- STRANGE
PASTOR- How do you mean
ME- You are supposed to be a pastor please i am not interested.
PASTOR- I know you are surprised but i just told you the sincere truth. please don't say no. its between the two of us.
I will never be a part to sin! so i replied him,
ME- PASTOR are you sure you are born again? what about your wife? remember 1 cor 10:12
PASTOR- Please sister Stella forgive me about that; am very sorry, i don't know what came over me. please don't even remind me of that temptation and my mistake. please just assume it never happened and i hope you'll still take me as your pastor.
Indeed, how can i take someone who almost raped me as my pastor? Impossible!. I decided to stop going to church, for one week i didn't go for service. What am i going to hear in the first place. Do not commit adultery or what?. this experience affected me psychologically, i wasn't thinking straight any more, There was nobody to talk to.
Not until after i told my sister did i get better. I decided to put all what happened behind me. I have forgiven the pastor though, but i can never forget that experience. Thank God i wasn't raped. I have learnt a lesson- TRUST NO ONE
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